Tay is a dog in a foster home until she can find her perfect family. The task at hand was to find out her opinion on what kind of life and homelife would be best for her. Okay, this conversation turned out different than expected! I thought I was simply going to ask Tay about her preferences, as was requested in her profile. She did answer this, but not in the way I imagined. "My needs are simple: give love, get love!" said Tay. "I want to get along with everyone. I want everyone to be happy that I am there with them." But then she admitted, "I am always looking for anything that might point to someone not being happy with me. That is my downfall. My weakness. I'm too quick to feel guilt or shame. Sometimes I make mistakes (she shows me things like getting too caught up in play and getting a little too much 'bite' on the other; or chewing something she wasn't supposed to because she was focused on soothing her nerves). So, I will need someone with patience and understanding that I am not perfect. But I have a good heart and I can bring happiness to your life. Good dogs do that, right?" I replied, "Tay, so far, what you describe sounds very normal — for anyone! It sounds like you can be hard on yourself for 'mistakes' you make. But everyone makes mistakes. It's part of living on Earth. To me, you feel like a good-natured dog with a mellow personality. You get along with others. You like to play and are open to adventures. And it does feel like your weakness is always thinking someone is going to catch you doing something wrong or that they don't like and then you'll be in trouble or will have to leave." I can feel the tension in her surrounding this. It's preventing her from saying what her preferences are because she doesn't believe she deserves to be choosy like that. The fact that she has a home with people who love her is enough. "Ok, Tay," I said, trying a different approach. "But what if you got to choose more of what you want and like? What if you were voted best dog in the world and that honor came with being able to say where you wanted to live, what kind of place, what kind of experience, the food, the surroundings, the companionship… Just put aside any of your fears or worries for a moment. What would an ideal life for you be like?" The first visual I got after proposing this was Tay as an amalgamation of three (or more?) different dogs. She has her current coloring and pattern, but had the head of a shelty, a body of a dachshund, and it felt like corgi was in the mix. It felt like she was simply "covering all her bases." By being many kinds of dogs, she was ensuring that she had at least some qualities people would like. The second visual I got was Tay on a woman's lap. At first I just thought it was to show me she me that she would be happy just hanging out with her person in this way. But then she start licking a place on the woman's neck that looked like it was sliced, either through a surgical procedure or metaphorically signifying something related to the person's ability to talk or speak up. Tay was "kissing" away the wound and with every lick, she was erasing it. I wasn't expecting the conversation to go in this direction, so I was still left wondering what Tay would want if she could craft her life. I was about to ask some specific questions, like about food or other animals in the house, and Tay came in and said, "That *is* what I would want. I want to be everything for my person. I want to be there for her, be the loving, healing source in her life. The rest just doesn't matter. Food is food. I'm sure I will enjoy whatever it is. Other animals in the house…it would be fun to have a companion, but I am okay just on my own with my person." I wondered about her reference to a single person, rather than a family, and was about to ask her about it, when she came in to say, "A family would be wonderful!" and I got visuals of her happy to be amidst the excitement of family life, kid energy, and all the fun things to do. But it felt like, even though there was a "longing" for a family life like that, Tay knew she had another mission in this life and it was with a woman who needed her. She didn't know who it was yet, but felt there was destiny involved and a deeper purpose. I also felt Tay wouldn't be happiest simply staying at home. She wanted to get out and explore with her person — and she would lead if she needed to. "So, Tay," I said. "Based on this revelation, it sounds like you already have a specific mission in life — a purpose all lined up. Isn't that enough to enable you to let go of some of these other fears of letting people down?" She thought about this. The "revelation" had been buried and now that she was reacquainted with it, she could see new possibilities. She was still unsure about the future and about being accepted and approved. But there was a new layer of excitement and security that she was trying to integrate. It allowed her to finally "dream" of the life she wanted rather than to just take what was given to her. "Tay, this all sounds very heartwarming and wonderful," I commented. "I hope this all comes true for you and you realize what a special dog you are — on your own and eventually in someone's life." Her three-in-one dog body became just her again, now with a newfound belief in herself. She was happy, confident, and dreaming of a bright future. After recording this conversation, I went to mark a date on it in my journal and noticed a strong "angel number" in the date: 19-9-19 So I looked it up in case this was a message for Tay and one interpretation was: The angel number meaning 919 is a sign of new beginnings. You have moved to a new place. The angels want you to begin new habits. Draft a new routine for yourself. Then I Iooked up 191 to see if there was a different meaning and found: Angel number 191 says that through your actions you will motivate one or two people to start work on their goals as well.
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