I was following up my previous conversation with him. He didn't like his living situation at all and was very resentful. It affected his relationship with his "mom." She was finally able to move him to a new place where he could go freer and graze and hang out with other horses. I connected to explain what happened. I opened with a loving hello and stroked his head. He pulled back and said he doesn't like that (I got the feeling that it was because he doesn’t know me well and has a distrust of people right now). So I explained what his mom went through to try to get him to a better place. He nodded his head up and down in approval. "That's what I'm talking about. This is more like it." "So it looks like you are much happier in your new place," I commented. "Yes. I'm not meant to be with just people. People don't get me like horses do. I can be myself (with horses)." I explained, "Your mom is really trying to understand you and do everything she can to make your life better and happier." "She didn't always succeed," he replied. I felt the resentment, but it was based on a limited view of the situation. So I explained, "Sometimes we have to compromise, as it's not always possible to do get or do everything we want in life. She was doing the best she could with the options she had then and also the information she had. Now she knows more about what you want and need." "I do appreciate what she has done. And I am much happier here," he said. I asked, "Do you think you can have a better relationship now with your mom?" He replied, "Relationships take time. We are beginning anew. Yes, it's possible. We/I will work on it. But just so you know, I don't *need* a relationship with people if I have my own people (horses)." "That's true and the choice is all yours. But in this life, you are still dependent on people to take care of you (I feel some resentment over this). So nurturing a good relationship with people — or even just the person connected to you — can be a good thing. You might find it rewarding and even enlightening to have a relationship with another species, especially with someone who cares so much for you. You don't have to earn her love or work to get it. She already offers it to you and feels that way. But it is hurtful when you reject that. He's very thoughtful at this point. I feel like he is internalizing this and realizing he's been a bit focused on himself and wants to try to be better. I see an image of a horse in a birthday hat and feel that it signifies being "born again," starting a new life. So I continued, "I know your mom's doing her best to tune into you and your feelings and needs. Perhaps if you try to be more open, to let her in a bit more, and even tune into her feelings and needs, you might discover a really wonderful relationship." <Hope and some guarded excitement> "Huyaku, please don't feel like I am scolding you or blaming you for anything. You have gone through some difficult times and reacted in ways to protect yourself. Now that you know more and understand more, you can make different decisions if you choose. It's just how life works. But nobody is blaming you and there's no reason to feel bad about yourself. Look forward!" <He is still deeply thinking about all this, but nods his head in agreement> "I wish you the very best in your new life and hope it is full of happy times," I ended. He gives a little whinny and says, "I'll drink to that!" and I see him slurping from his water trough.
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