Sara is a donkey living at an animal sanctuary with her brother. After living many years on a farm where she didn't receive the care she needed, she is in poor health. Though she has gotten great treatment and care at the sanctuary, she has stopped eating and the vet feels it's best to let her cross over. I found out just a few hours before and wanted to connect with her. When I tried tuning in, things felt a bit chaotic. The colors were dark and stormy. It felt like things were crumbling, like this reality was fading away or disintegrating. Sara said this was not a good time to talk. I asked when would be a good time and she said "after." I wasn't sure if this was a clear or accurate connection and I hated to think that if I walked away now and she really did want to talk and I misinterpreted… So I tried again, this time picturing her in a bright and sunny meadow. Things felt happy there and she felt cheerful. I could see/feel to the side that the darker reality I had first connected with was still there just on the other side, kind of like in a bordering dimension. "Sara, what's going on in that other reality?" I asked her. "I couldn't sustain it anymore," she said. "It's served its purpose." "So you're okay with leaving? The time is right for you?" I checked. "Under the circumstances, yes. My body couldn't take any more. My mind couldn't break free from the loop (state of mind created by the physical problems), and so it's time to move on." "And what of Wilbur?" I asked, wondering how her brother would get along without her. "It will be difficult for him. He is strong. This will give him the freedom to expand." I see him on the cusp of his next phase in life, growing into a bolder, wiser being, able to hold his own among the horses. They treat him like he is important. None of this was possible with Sara as his charge. Sara comes across much differently than she ever has to me. Her persona is soft, glowing, positive, happy, cheerful, radiant. I think this is her spirit. She is able to show me where she was (the darker place) and where she really has never left (her eternal soul space). From this perspective, she knows her donkey life is simply an overlay, one dimension of all her dimensions. "I will be with Wilbur in spirit the whole time," Sara answers my unasked question. "Will he know it?" I wondered. "Yes, at some level he will. It won't be easy at first — this transition period. He is a sensitive soul, more so than he leads on. But he has greatness in him and his destiny calls, just as mine calls me." "And where does it call you?" I asked. I wonder about "healing from this life" or "taking time to integrate the lessons of this life" — concepts I've heard people talk about. But Sara just smiles warmly at me and I feel a very young energy about her and faintly see/feel a young donkey. It felt like it may be part of her plan, but she wasn't saying for sure, almost like it didn't matter. The part that mattered was the renewal, starting life again, rejuvenation. I wondered if she did what she came to this life to do. She took a look at her life and it nearly took her breath away, partly because of the difficulties and partly because from her stance, life is breathtaking and wonderful. "Oh yes," she answered. "Life accomplished." She shows me themes of camaraderie, perseverance, resilience, support, compassion, finding beauty. The camaraderie was when she was younger and with others (her original family). The perseverance was also then, making it through some hard times, as was resilience which continued through her life. The support was her supporting Wilbur, even though it looked like the other way around (they supported each other in different ways). The compassion was a gift to others, enabling them to express that in caring for and about her. Finding beauty is just that — embracing the simple things amidst the ongoing difficulties. Sweet grass. Sunshine. Companionship. Loving people and animals (including "that cat"). Cool, starry nights. A safe home. "All is well," she said as the sunny scene began to fade a little. "You know how much Stephanie loves you and that she will take good care of Wilbur?" I asked before she said her goodbyes. "Of course. How do you think all that beauty was possible? We co-created that world — all of us together — so that we could all experience and expand and explore and do what we came here to do. She (Stephanie) did her part well. She made it possible. I am grateful and there is deep love there between us, extending far beyond this plain. She has always done the right thing, never a misstep. No regrets. She sends lots of love out. I am watching to see how she will find ways to let more of it come back in. And she will." The scene faded further and she repeated, "All is well." From my human perspective, I was focused on the concept of "goodbye," where things are final and fade away into memory. And my mind was the one slowly darkening the scene as one would experience at the end of a theater performance. But Sara kept turning the lights back up, showing me that things aren't ending, they continue on. This is not goodbye in the eternal sense, only in this instance. We all are just turning in a slightly different direction and experiencing a whole different existence. "I think I get it, Sara. Then it's not goodbye, just see you later?" I asked. "Yes. Exactly," said Sara, very happy, very pleased. "Okay, then I will say, thank you for sharing this part of your life with me." "It was a beautiful intersection, was it not?" she posed. There was no need for any more words. And goodbyes were no longer necessary either. We just sat together enjoying the beautiful meadow and the warm sun and the company of the other in that moment in time. It felt like it was in infinite moment that went on forever, even if physically, I returned to my own reality.
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