I was drawn in by Spirit and her brightness and hadn't remembered that I spoke with her a month before. But something said to talk with her again — and what was unveiled through our conversation and the ensuing feedback was amazing! "Hi Spirit, you have such a bright spirit," I told her right away. I got a big smile back and her eyes even smiled and looked like they were almost closed because of it. As I gazed at her, I was sort of transferred into her body to show me how it felt. She was jumping around in excitement, but her body felt very heavy. Not being a dog in this life, I don't know how it really feels. But I wouldn't think it would feel so heavy, like it took a great force to move around freely. "Why do you want to show this to me, Spirit?" I asked. "I wanted you to feel what it was like to be me," she responded. Then added, "Near the end." "It feels like you still had a light, joyous spirit, but that your body was more difficult to maneuver." I wanted to confirm what I was feeling from her "body." "Yes. Nothing to be concerned about. I'm not showing you to point out any suffering or to bring up bad memories," she explained. "I just wanted you to feel the contrast…" And the next moment, her body felt featherweight and free of gravity. I clearly got the feeling she was showing me her spirit form and how freeing it was. But she wanted to be clear: there is no superior state of being. Being free in spirit has its benefits and wonders. But so does being in physical, and she loves them both. "What did you like most about being Spirit the dog," I asked. "Connection. Physical connection with my family. A caress on the face, a nuzzle, a transfer of loving feelings in the moment — these are things unique to the physical experience and I treasured them," she said. "Were there any specific events or activities that stand out as things you loved?" I wondered. "I loved the times when we welcomed a new member of the family to the house. Being able to comfort them, warmly greet them for the first time and assure them all will be well and they are special here — those were precious moments. They are pivotal moments for the one being welcomed. So you can see what great, positive impact we can have on their lives by how we interact in those first moments; what a great responsibility it is for us to support a fellow being at a sensitive and life-changing time. I savored it. I welcomed with a warm and loving heart, and from my view now, I know it made a difference." "Wow, that's a really beautiful memory, Spirit," I said. "I was expecting a memory about something that happened TO you, and you told me about something you loved to do for others." "I can also tell you about things that happened TO me," she offered. She didn't say this like an apology or to help meet my expectation, but simply to add to the story. She sends me some visuals of a sandy shore. Did she ever visit the beach? Her first time felt like a magical experience. The sand was so… different. PLUS, you got to play in the water! As I ask her about any other experiences she wants to show me, they all involve others, like a family activity, a big playful romp, a gathering. It feels like she is very social, enjoys being with others, and is very easy-going. She wasn't necessarily a leader, but others looked up to her. She led by example. Her energy is very sunshiny and bright. "Anything else you want to say or tell your people?" I asked. "It's okay. It's all okay," she said. "From my perspective, it all works out in the end. Those time of fretting, worrying, scraping to make it all work — know that they do work, and will, even with less fretting and worrying! Take some time every so often and just see and feel what you have around you — it's more valuable and precious than know. The gems are there. They are sparkling right in front of you. Stop chasing peace and instead begin recognizing it." She said all of this without a hint of judgement or guilt, just love for you. "Spirit, we need more beings like you. Thank you for who you are," I told her. "There are more of us than you think," she said. "But there are a lot of distractions in life that sometimes make it difficult to notice what you see in me." She added, "Keep looking. We are doing what we can from here — and from there — to help." Her energy felt like you would expect from a Buddhist monk, full of serenity and love and compassion. "You have friends among you," she said, and sent a visual of all the companion animals in the world, here to help infuse some love into the world — our individual worlds. "Thank you for this loving and hope-filled conversation, Spirit," I said. She just smiled her loving smile, emanating love as she has throughout the whole conversation. Feedback:Near the end her body was wearing out, both her joints and organs. Her spirit never wavered though. She even enjoyed a beautiful stroll in the sun and grass and visiting her bunnies just before we took her to the vet for a final goodbye. That's what was so difficult, her spirit had a lot of love for life still, but her body said it was time to go. We went to the beach many years ago when she was a young adult. We also went a few times about 7-8 yrs ago. She did seem to love the sand and wading in the water. Though she was never one for swimming. We always called her our social butterfly. Anywhere she went a stranger (human or dog) was simply a friend she hadn't met. She especially loved small and young dogs and little kids. She was a great mentor to the young ones. Her medical needs near the end where very worrisome on our family, the cost was very great, causing a lot of worry and fretting. I always stressed over providing the best care for her without causing financial ruin for the rest of the family. Spirit always seemed to reach out to those in need and offer her light and reassurance to anyone. Perhaps she felt a need from you and I for some additional reassurance.
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