I spoke with Flynn a few days ago and the feedback I received was generally positive, but felt like it was generous, as it didn't seem like the Flynn that I was presented with was too accurately the Flynn his person knows him to be. So I was curious what happened. Why was his personality and energy so different in real life than what I got? Could I have been wrong? So I thought I'd connect again and see if I got a different read — or maybe even an explanation! "Hi Flynn, it's me again," I greeted him. He shook his head at me like last time. And like last time, I felt it was purposefully directed at me. But now knowing he has a nerve issue with his head shaking, I could also see where that was happening along with it. But I could clearly feel his intent to nod at me. "You're back so soon," he said. "Well, I was kind of curious… the feedback I got from your person on our conversation painted a different picture of who you show yourself to be in real life. It was almost to the point of my wondering if I connected with the right horse! So I wanted to check in with about why you thought that happened." "I don't need to think about it," he began. "I can present myself in any way I want, any time I want." He said this with a growing tinge of irritation, which surprised me. It felt like he didn't want anyone questioning him and his motives or actions. They are his to do what he pleases with! "You're saying you presented yourself to me in a certain way just because you felt like it, but that you really have a different personality?" I asked. I could feel the rising irritation in him as he started to protest this line of questioning, but then suddenly, he let all that go and returned to that genial, clean-energy horse he was in my first conversation. "It's a matter of choice," he began explaining. "When things go my way, I can be easy-going — and why not? But if they don't go my way, I can choose to help that situation along by displaying behavior that is often quite convincing." "You mean, it gets you what you want?" I clarified. "Yes," he said simply. "So then why did you present yourself to me as someone you are typically not?" I asked. "It's not that I'm not typically that personality — I can be with the right people and the right situation. But many people and animals and situations require something more than easy-going to produce the preferred end result." "There's a human expression, 'You catch more flies with honey.' Has that not worked for you?" I asked. "See previous answers," he said. I guess he has said it and doesn't want to go over it again! "Okay," I said, letting it go. "But was it true about your health, that you feel there's nothing wrong with you?" "I don't want anyone fussing over me," he said. "I'm not the fussing type. Give me some breeze, I'll give you the ease." As I thought about this and wondered if he would then explain what would happen if you don't give him the breeze, he came back to say, "I'm allowed! We can be and do anything we want in this world. It's part of how it works. If someone doesn't like who I choose to be in any given moment, they can simply move away from me. Or I can move away from them if I don't like how they are." Each time Flynn expressed himself in this way, with a little irritation, I wondered how he was able to present such clean, easy-going energy to me in my first conversation. And each time I thought of this, his current, slightly ornery energy, melted away and turned "clean." "It really is as simple as that," Flynn commented on my observation. "You do it all the time. Everyone does." I could see his point, though to go from super gentle and breezy to irritated and ornery seemed a little extreme, like two separate personalities. It felt like it was a reaction to his feeling of having no control over certain situations, and this made him feel trapped, boxed in, and irritated. Health limitations and not always being in control of his situation or destiny or getting what he wants feels like it is part of this picture. I was going to ask him for details, but he said, "It is what it is." "My choice, in this moment, is to be congenial," he continued. "So let's leave it at that. Another moment will have its own tale to tell." "Okay, as you wish," I assured him. It felt like he could really turn on the charm when he wanted to — again, his choice. "Thank you for the explanation, Flynn," I said. "I hope you have a nice day." "Things are looking up," he said cheerfully. And I could see him looking over a fence into another field where there were some other horses. I think these were the "women." See previous conversation! Feedback:Firstly there was no question in my mind that you had not connected with Ludo in your initial communication. However, I am really pleased that you chose to reconnect with him and look a bit deeper. I love that Ludo is a showman when he telepathically connects with people as I feel that he loves being this carefree spirit who can be whoever he wants, like a kind of escapism for him. So it did trigger a bit of my protectiveness for him when you asked him for more of his "real" self and it raised irritation in him but your conversation with him was still very respectful so thank you. I think also there is a huge lesson in here that Ludo is sharing. It has taken me many years to understand Ludo and he still sometimes baffles me. You have picked up his irritation a few times in this second communication but as quickly as it comes as quickly as it goes. In real life he is the same. He will go from talking away to me with his ears pricked up then as quick as a click of the fingers he will bite me, then flip back to butter wouldn't melt. Over time horses have evolved to fit in with humans "needs" in order to survive. They have become slaves or servants doing things that people want them to do in return for food and shelter. As prey animals being controlled by predators it is so far from nature. I believe that Ludo's primal instincts are very close the surface and his feelings of being trapped and having no control comes from a combination of instinct and people trying to break his spirit through bad "training" when he was young. You have summed up and captured him so perfectly in this paragraph - "I could see his point, though to go from super gentle and breezy to irritated and ornery seemed a little extreme, like two separate personalities. It felt like it was a reaction to his feeling of having no control over certain situations, and this made him feel trapped, boxed in, and irritated. Health limitations and not always being in control of his situation or destiny or getting what he wants feels like it is part of this picture. I was going to ask him for details, but he said, "It is what it is." Ludo doesn't make life easy for himself but really why should he when a life in the wild with a herd of "girls" would have been the perfect life for him. The lesson I have been reminded of in this communication you so kindly shared with me is about choice. We can choose to be who we want to be. Do we really have to conform just to be liked? Move away from things we don't like or people can move away from us if they don't like what they are seeing. I have learnt to work with Ludo and have his environment as natural as possible and if I need to do anything with him I wait for him to decide when I can do it. Just recently Ludo has sore heels because of all the mud and wet so it would help him to have some cream on them. His first reaction was to kick and kick and not allow me to even look at them and my first thought was I'd have to tie him up but then I thought how is that regarding his feelings, not at all. So I waited and I explained what I wanted to do and today he let me put the cream on with no fuss or argument. I'm so super impressed how insightful you have been in this deep conversation with Ludo and I'm really appreciative of the time you spent with him and what you have shared with me.
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